Feeling alone in a crowded room.
Feeling alone in a crowded room.
I felt judged by people, it all felt too soon.
Feeling like nobody listens.
I feel like a blister. So much pressure within.
Feeling like I have things to say.
My mind is sluggish I feel lost and afraid.
Feeling like the world has picked teams and I’m the last one to be chosen.
I feel like even that’s a chore, they don’t pick me because I’m broken.
Feeling angry. Feeling sad.
Shh, but don’t tell them the truth because they’ll think you’re mad.
Feeling like I have to explain that last line.
I shouldn’t have to though, but it’s not fine.
Feeling like I’ll be put in a box, it’s all a bit hazy.
I’ll never understand, why ask if you just think I’m crazy?
Feeling like nothing and everything at the same time.
I feel like cussing. I feel like yelling. I feel like hiding. I feel like crying.
Feeling like people don’t know what to say anymore so they just apologize.
I don’t expect you to understand, I’m hurting more than you realize.
Feeling like the word is inside out and upside down.
Shhhh. Don’t tell anyone though, because it’s not nice to bring THEM down.
Nevermind all the pain and the feelings and the agony you go thru-
Just put the mask back on and be happy they’re talking to you.
They don’t care about the truth, they just asked to be polite-
So I lie again and say “I’m doing alright.”
KTupua
September 2020