When everyday is the same...
When everyday is the same...
Pain, Pills, Lethargy, Self Loathing.
When almost every new discovery is finding out something else you can no longer do...
When you look around at “memories” that are supposed to be yours...
and you have no recollection of that person that’s supposed to be you.
When the shadows of a you from years ago represents nothing of who you are now...
how much can you take?
how much are you supposed to take?
When every reflection is a compartmentalized and augmented picture...
like a fractured mirror...
all different angles...
and none that you recognize...
What next?
When you long to be around people because you’re lonely,
but soon realize that the anxiety of being around people is traumatic and paralyzing...
When you want to “do” or “go” but it inconveniences others or hinders the fun...
When in every gaze, you find judgement...
In Every whisper you hear ridicule...
In every step and shadow, you feel a threat.
When you no longer find joy in things you once did...
What then?
KTUPUA
November 2020