I’m already Dead
I’m already Dead
Half the man I was, I breathe, yet I am not alive.
My blood pulses, of this I’m sure... I’ve seen it, yet I am not alive.
People say: “Live your Best life”, yet nobody tells you what that means.
Nobody tells you how. “Just choose to be happy!” Yet nobody can tell you of those dreams.
Less than half of who I am, I feel unfulfilled.
I feel forgotten, I feel betrayed, I feel a fool.
My own soul claws to get out, but my body refuses to let go.
It’s a funny thing, wanting release when I’m too much of a coward to pull the cord.
My body is programmed to survive, so against my own wishes I continue to survive.
Days on a calendar, they blur in their passing.
Another day gone, and blank answers to my asking.
Never the man I was... I’m lost in a dream. Losing my drive.
I no longer know who I am. My heart beats, yet I am not even alive.
KTUPUA
January 2021