By Kuresa

A Family photo... even perfect coincidence with the slideshow...

Thursday 11th of February 2021 12:18:00 AM

A Family photo... even perfect coincidence with the slideshow...

Something so “normal” but now, forever incomplete. ❤️😔💔

Mom, you always tried to get us together, keep us together and hold us together.

A Peacemaker, in your own way.

And in true form... at least once more this past weekend, we came together, for you.

It’s been hard to sleep because I feel like each day I don’t hear you, is a day closer to forgetting the sound of your voice...

Forgetting your touch...

Forgetting your laugh...

Forgetting you... 😔💔

My phone buzzes and with hope, I search for the notification that I’m receiving a message from you... maybe just one more.

I don’t ever want to forget you.

I don’t want to only remember to visit once a year.

I don’t want to ever not be able to get to you again.

I wasn’t ready... I’m still not ready...

I know you aren’t here.

I know you aren’t in any more pain.

I know you’re healed.

I know you’re catching up with my younger siblings, and Davina is probably hugging you every chance she gets... I know that’s what I would do...

I know you’re with all of those who have gone on before...

but hearing people tell me these things, over and over, like it’s supposed to fill this emptiness I feel...

it’s no comfort to me.

To me: they’re just constantly reminding me that you’re gone.

I’m not in denial... I just don’t need to keep hearing it.💔😔💔

I Love you, Mom.

I miss you, terribly...

KTupua

February 2021