When life throws instability into an already painful world that you live in, what do you do about it?
When life throws instability into an already painful world that you live in, what do you do about it?
Me?
Self care is the first thing I suggest to anyone who approaches me with this dilemma.
Ironically, it’s the last thing I ever observe for myself.
Sometimes you just want to be around people, because their smiles help to remind you that not everyone is hurting as you are, and it helps the mask of “I’m ok” fit better.
It’s a lie... but the lie feels good.
Hiding is ok.
You are absolutely allowed to feel like you need to be alone and in the dark, but don’t stay there.
Go dark; but just go to stow away all the hurt and pain and put it away.
It’ll never go away, but at least you know where the lockbox is.
Living in camouflage isn’t bad... as long as you are still being true to yourself.
Find your truth.
Kick the lies and the noise.
It’s hard... I know... but remember the light.
Remember the good days. Remember the things worth living for, and keep pushing for those things.
That smile you remember that warmed your face...
What was it?
That belly laugh that time that was the good kind of side hurt...
Hold on to it.
You are so loved.
You are necessary.
You are enough.
Hold to what matters and shed the lies.
You matter so much even when you can’t see it...
MakeItToTomorrow and start again.
That quest to keep living and loving starts everyday.
So make it thru the dark.
You aren’t alone, tho many times it feels that way.
I Love you.
KTupua
January 2021