I Don’t Understand
I Don’t Understand
It’s impossible to explain what we don’t understand ourselves.
When we say “we don’t know”
We legitimately don’t know specifics..
we just know something is not as it should be.
It’s similar to stomach flu. You don’t know how or why... you just know something is very wrong.
We break and don’t know why, then you ask why we broke and we can’t answer...
Then there’s a feeling of disappointment because now we can’t somehow present the answer of our own pain.
We’re suffering... but you act like we have the remedy...
If I don’t understand the pain, how can I know how to make it stop.
So many questions, so much pain. So much confusion
I don’t even know who I am anymore... I see my reflection and I wonder who that is.
I wonder why a dead man is looking in a mirror.
KTupua
May 2019